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Hi Dale,
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Thank you Kathy N. You are right that nowadays, I more inclined to think for myself and to stand up for what I want. I used to be so dependent upon their advice that I used to immediately take their advice without considering deeply my thoughts on the issue. The difficulty in my relationship with Carlo was that I was staying with my parents at that time, and my parents controlled when i could be with Carlo.

The difficulty in patching up things with my parents is that although they are showing that they care for me (supporting my violin dreams, and telling me they miss me), I think that the next time I’ll be in a relationship again, I am not so certain whether they will respect my boundaries. I am not so certain that they’ve learned from this lesson, and I don’t know if they are aware at how deeply, deeply wounded I was by last year’s events.

How do I know if Carlo was one of those soulmates? A part of me wishes we could get back together again in the future, but a part of me wants to find the next soulmate. I find it hard to transition into a platonic friendship with him, as talking with him reminds me of the pain of last year, and the immense joy we had together.

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Hi Kathy,
Thanks again for your reply. I will look you up over there!

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Thanks Kathy N,
I was able to share a friendly lunch with Henry, but as you said, he seemed preoccupied that day. I found out that he has a girlfriend 🙁 so that makes him off-limits for now.

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Thanks Kathy N and Fiona!

I am currently at Lesson 2 🙂 of the Life Mastery Program, so I think that will help me a lot. Would you mind sharing me how it is helped (either one) of you?

Like i said, i’m still having trouble deciphering what it is that sometimes gnaws at me that makes me deeply unhappy. I think what has really gotten to me is that I felt deep regret at how certain things in my life have transpired. My university career didn’t go as well as I’d wished it could have, and I’ve had to give up some dreams (particularly my writing dream). I know it’s part of growing up, but it’s a painful process.

I also have difficulty not being envious of people who are 1) more outgoing 2) better speakers (Kathy N, you are right that I’m quite good at written expression, but speaking has always been difficult for me) 3) very intelligent. I try not to be envious (for moral reasons), but the feelings surface frequently, and I end up criticizing myself a lot.

I also realized that a big part of the problem is I like to think about ideas/like intellectual conversations, but am afraid of sounding pretentious by starting them- I just have to get over that hurdle and I’m good.

Fiona, I think it is interesting that you mention psychology because I am currently a violin performance major looking to second major in psychology. When you mean working with people, do you mean that you saw me as a violin teacher, or did you see me working outside of the field of music? You are also spot on about reading more philosophy/psychology books because those are the ideas that profoundly interest me. I will look into Toastmasters, and see how it is possible for me to do a drama class in the future.

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Hello Kathy N,
I am curious as to what kind of imagery/sense you’re getting from Henry (for you to say he’s “obviously” interested)! 🙂 Zach hasn’t been keeping in touch, but he is coming in a week and we might see each other again. I am very lonely, so I hope either one works out.

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Hi Dale,
I’m interested in knowing more about the details of this!
Thanks!

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Dear Kathy N,
Thank you for your kind response. I am worried about a career in music because I don’t know how I will fare with this economy. Do you see me being able to get a job ?

Can you sense some of Zach’s feelings towards me? There is also someone in school who I think might be interested in me as well – his name is Henry. Can you also sense some of what Henry is feeling?

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