This is nothing psychic but I want to say I understand. I got the courage to leave and start over. It was tough, especially the first year but I did it. I have not looked for love as I wanted to focus on my kids but now they are almost grown. One day, I will open up to love. I do sense you will be able to love again snd will not take as long as I have. I do sense some control issues and hostility on spouses part so do be careful!