Dearest Bearsangel,
I have a sense that your health issues are related to your loss of your parents, depression, loss of hope and severe fatigue which is manifesting as issues in your overall health.
I’m so sorry hon, it is so painful.
I would ask that you invest in yourself by searching out a free support group for grief, also to just spend some time each day doing anything that you can to give to yourself. You have given so much and you are in need at this time for some nurturing yourself.
Go for a small walk, make your favorite drink and enjoy being present in how wonderful it tastes and makes you feel. Go to the library if you enjoy that.
Probably most important, ask for help, as you have done in here.
Reach out to create supportive friendships, it is anonymous in here so there is little risk and much support to be found.
?? love and prayers for you hon.
The job comes to me as very close to where you live, it does not involve a lot of pressure, you would work with the public. I feel that you will find it almost by accident by paying attention when you go into places if they are hiring. Seems generic, but it feels like it well just simply show up for you.
Best wishes to you in your healing hon and in regaining your self and your life? sending loving energy and light to you.