Hi Lisa,
I’m just going to follow my train of thought and I may not answer your questions in as much detail as you need …but here is what I’m getting. Just from your letter (no psychic stuff), I’m getting that you are a very caring parent who so wants to give the very best to your children, have them be very happy and succeed. I just feel the Love and Care you have for them bouncing off that letter…it is beautiful.
Intuitively, I’m getting that you are very much in pain due to money struggles and past disappointments….there is a grasping sense to your pain….a sense of betrayal or betrayals…as you have trusted and tried many times only to be struck down in your efforts….which has made your pain even worse.
There is a lot of noise and activity and demands going on externally. I feel you must rein yourself in…at least for the present, if you can. You are losing a solid sense of yourself because of all these outside demands and a feeling of attack on your sense of “control over your life” …and it is time to look within…pray, meditate….start building a base inside that will give you a safe place to go…a place you can surrender to…when things do not work out as you would like, (ex: your child’s tuition expenses, or your daughter’s issue with the cheerleading coach (by the way, I do not get that she was cut in an unethical manner from her team).
That’s just my impression.
But as I said before….working on your own healing and disappointment….will change (for sure) your outer circumstances. Another suggestion would be to get out in nature on a daily basis to ground yourself and remember who you are. I hope this is helpful. Best wishes to you, Spring