I can see that you are not ready to let go. You will continue to love and need him and close your heart to other men. I would advise against it but you will not listen anyway and will allow your tender and loving heart to lead you. Eventually you will be “done” but you are a good and loving soul.
you are right my son is not his. And wow that has opened my eyes alot. That is bad. I do think you are right on all of it. That sucks cause I was willing to raise his 5 children without a second thought. To know he isn’t done messing around with other women is a plus too. Truly thank you. I will work on my heart. Thank you again