Hello. I want to warn u that many readers do not have ur best interests in heart and will by default mention that u need to be inblocked by a very expensive cleansing usually involving them making candles in ur image and needing to follow up with u often. It is horrible when ppl take advantage of a person who is in a tough time.
I pray u can soon feel free from this sense of heaviness. I have felt most this past fecade the same as u. For me its like a karmic debt that i can never afford to pay off. I do feel blocked from the goodness coming my way as well. Try to stay focused on the positive in ur life. U r loved.