Do you love your family? Have you given serious thought to how your behavior might be affecting them? Once again I strongly encourage you to get the counseling that you need to help you with this.
Please consider the dangers that could be involved if you were to give in to your desires. Please also consider the consequences that could come with this. You need to discover why this seems so important to you. Is it really worth possibly losing your family as a result of this?
Have you asked yourself how you want your life to be like in 5 to 10 years? Please seriously consider your future as well as your family’s.
Best wishes,
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