I see with you, Shay, that you struggle with commitment. If you want to turn your situation around you have to commit to a plan or vision to get you there. I see you breaking in this area of money due to lack of commitment. Don’t feel bad, I have been there and know very well what that’s like but I can give you some advice. If you have a plan in front if you because you’ve thought about the happiness it would bring, and not just money, what you would want to be doing or what would give you fulfilment, after some soul searching, seek fulfillment in the ways you make money. If you find fulfillment as a whole in not just one area, but two or more, it will lessen the lack that you feel. Dale Sellers gave me advice to get a job just to support myself while I pursue my higher, more fulfilling goals.(looking at it that way)I see you building a bridge that will take time to a paved road. I see success in your life. Your seeking answers now which is a start. Don’t stop seeking.