Hi!
I’m Charles. I’m sorry to hear about your situation too, and am sending good vibrations for you. I’m new here too, but I think this site has a lot of interesting self-help and resources for spiritual growth. I hope you can find comfort in them.
I’m actually a religious studies scholar by trade. So if you are interested in free eastern religion resources or European esoterica I can help you find something, too.
I hope your new journey will be better.