Right away, as i focus in on you, my intuition is telling me that you don’t feel supported by your relationship partner through all this whirlwind of changes. It’s like you are swimming in the ocean after a storm, towards a flotation device, but cant seem to grab on to it and you are left swimming and treading water alone and tired. She is there, but the support you need from her is just out of reach. She may not be willing or able to be that supportive person. How do you take control? Be clear with what your needs are in your life, all aspects of your life. Write them down, know them and get them. Do not settle for any less than what you require. If you do, you will fall. you will lose. Do not let your current girlfriend, flakey friends or family members who are self centered pull you away. You must be willing to stand firm. If someone walks out or distances you because of it, they weren’t concerned about you or a partnership with you in the first place. Be willing to stand firm and get those things. as I focus in on you, you are too intelligent and capable of great success. This confusion you are experiencing….you have no room for it. Get the ball back