My daughter and I have not spoken for approximately 3 years. She had a baby last year and I have not met her. My heart aches, but my pride will not allow me to make the first move. She was always very disrespectful towards me and one day she just pushed me too far and I cannot bring myself to back down and make amends. I feel that if I make the first move she will take advantage and revert to treating me badly. I need help. I feel so badly.