Adrian – I’m getting that it may be a while. This isn’t because you have a curse, it’s because of what you are doing physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and change it! I kept getting flashes of you spending a lot of time alone, maybe some sports stuff, or hanging out with some male friends. You are very sensitive so you have to be unique about where you go to meet people and, I’m not seeing that you are currently in those places. My psychic sense is that bars and clubs will be outright frustrating for you. Also, avoid trying to meet people with your guy friends around. Too much competition and awkwardness if you do that. Consider coffee shops or other intellectual environments where you can easily strike up a conversion with someone and maybe get to know them as a friend over time. Try to make friends first, without thinking about finding your soul-mate. Main thing is stop sabotaging yourself and take some action. Not trying to beat up on you, just trying to be honest about what I am seeing about your life. Please share your thoughts on these things.