hi having had a blood cloth behind my left eye oct 2017 which resulted in lossing my job and now having to take meds for life , i feel i,m just now entering a cross roads in my life but dont know which way to go very scarey ,mony worries whens my next pay check and were is it going to come from, i,m trying to pick myself up and dust off but its very hard when you keep on getting pushed to the floor again