Hi and thank you for replying.
You are definitely spot on there, a lot of not so pleasant experiences influencing me subconsciously. I always try to think positively, but the negative is always ready to put his two cents in. I like to think I am getting stronger at seeing the ray of hope, but bitter disappointment usually is the outcome. Though I ALWAYS brush it off (or it just being hurried, I’m starting to wonder), and soldier on.
As a favourite character of mine once said, “learn to wear it as armour, then it can never be used to hurt you.”
That is what I have done with my pain and limitations, there is nothing I can not do, it just hurts.
I do not use a handicap permit either, I leave that to people worse off.
I hope that explains myself a little more honestly than I am with myself. I thank you for replying, was harder than you realise for me to post.
Thank you.