Jen, I don’t sense an entity at all ora curse. But just in case, light Sage and say a prayer to whatever you believe is your higher power. I do sense some generational issues but would not call them curses. I sense that you lack confidence based on your family and upbringing. I see you feeling like you are. It good enough. I would suggest you write positive affirmations on sticky notes that you ARE good enough. You do deserve a job. You do deserve love.