Wow! Tina, it sounds as though your gift has been a challenging one to manage! And management it seems to demand, as blocking things is physically jamming up something in your physiology.I know personally very little about the insights you’ve had, however, as a visual artist, I do understand blocked creative energy. When the very thing that allows life force to flow powerfully through me can become sooo destructive if not given room to move. When no doors are open to my heart, when the surges get blocked in my gut, my body bloats…skin holds water so much my belly appears to be 6-7 with child, my fingers like little sausages, and my nose bright red. More disconcerting however, are the emotional experiences of holding in this energy that is screaming to come out. And the twitching. This probably sounds crazy. Perhaps doesn’t relate to you. But it seems that in little ways, perhaps you may create spaces and openings for what is knocking at your door. Community must be important, so you don’t feel afraid of there being too much or perhaps it is helpful in finding it at all. Best of luck!