Hey Autumn,
I’m showing up a little late for this post and I’m not sure if you want any psychic intuition on the subject or just advice, but hopefully I can offer you something relevant.
Being alone can be terrifying and it’s something most of us have struggled with at some point in our lives, so you’re alone, but not alone, ha.
I would like to point out to you, though, that until you can learn to find peace and satisfaction with JUST yourself, no relationship will ever be enough. You have to fall in love with yourself first. This is a simple statement to make but a long journey to experience! Until you are the love of your own life, you will always resort to desperation or defense when you deal with other people, because you will expect them to fill a void that isn’t theirs to fill.
I’m sure your perspective and experiences have shifted you a bit in the past few weeks. Let me know if there’s things you’d like help with.