It’s not easy Daniel. You need to, with all your might, tackle that alcohol problem head on. Your life depends on it. Nothing else in your life will be solved until you stop drinking. It may not have been the original root of your problems but today, it is the number one root of all your issues. There are no shortcuts or other scapegoats. This is it. Go to AA, a counselor, yoga, meditation class, whatever you have to do. You must OBSESS over stopping this and living without it.