Hey rudolph,
happiness is as far as we place it. I’m happy that your optimistic, for with optimism comes faith and with faith comes reality. Keep it up, happiness is a choice, and we all get to pick it. Just as they say rain beats on cement to make it harder, you could use this as an aspect of yours, you’re being tested. If you can handle the worst, you will be blessed with the best and also will have more appreciation of it. It’s like heating a pan before putting butter into it. Keep up the high spirits, feel the optimism not just in your thoughts but in your gut, while being grateful for the little things, and you will find out, that happiness isn’t merely exclusive. Also, have a checklist, cross out things you get done, no matter how little, this will motivate you. And, also give you a sense of accomplishment. Good luck there! I wish you well.