Hi:
I recieved word last night that my father passed away. My mother is travelling to meet me, and should arrive in a couple days. My brother is working in rural India, and we haven’t had the chance to inform him as of yet.
Unfortunately, a lifetime of solitude has exaggerated the loneliness I’ve been fighting the last few months, ever since I learned that my father was sick. Last weekend (the Canadian Thanksgiving Holiday) I travelled back to meet my parents, the last time I met my father alive. When I arrived back home, I was struck by a terrible emptiness that I couldn’t shake, no matter how hard I tried to distract myself with work afterwards.
After recieving word that my father had passed on, I arrived at work hoping I could deny everything. Unfortunately, I found myself in the locked office of my HR rep in tears who advised me to go home. I’ve spent the whole day in bed, with no one to talk to about it.
Earlier in the month I was shunned by a co-worker with whom I shared a lot of social time. She was upset that I couldn’t have supper with her, as I was too overcome with grief after learning that my father had taken a turn for the worse. Now whenever I see her at work, she pretends that I don’t exist. As I have requested several times for us to talk it over and she has ignored me, I’ve become reluctant to request the slightest demand for attention from the friendliest acquaintance. It’s too frightning too realize that no one has time for me.
Is there any way out of this?