What a tragedy. I’m so sorry for you. The future isn’t cut into stone, so don’t let anybody tell you what’s going to happen. My psychic voice tells me that you need to pray, pray, pray. If you don’t how, get somebody to teach you. Also, get involved with a church with some real soul and get them to pray for you too. There’s great power in numbers. Pray over and over. Work with the universe and make it happen. Miracles do exist!